Thursday, August 07, 2008

I'm supposed to cry and junk.

All quotes from the movie 'The United States of Leland'

Sometimes, the most important stuff goes away. It goes away so bad, it's like it was never there.

You have to believe that life is more then just the sum of its parts, kiddo.

I know what they want from me. They want a reason. Something to tie it up with a little bow and bury it in the backyard. Bury it so deep its like it never happened. They want me to say how I'm sorry and how it's my mom's fault, or my dad's fault. It happened cause the TV or movies or some junk like that. Or maybe, I could blame a girl.

I guess I'm supposed to be upset about what happened with her. I'm supposed to cry and junk. But, I'm pretty sure I've cried all the tears outta me by now.

That's when I figured out that tears couldn't make someone who was dead, alive again. There's another thing to learn about tears, they can't make someone who doesn't love you anymore, love you again. It's the same thing with prayers. I wonder how much time people waste crying and praying. If you ask me, the devil makes more sense than God does. I can at least see why people would want him around. That way, people can have someone to blame all the bad stuff they do on. Maybe we don't have God 'cause we're scared of the bad. Maybe, we're scared of the good stuff. When we do bad things, it's cause we want to. Maybe we need the bad stuff to remind us of the good stuff.

But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears. Nothing can make something that happened, un-happen.

I think there are two ways you can see the world. You either see the sadness that's behind everything, or you choose to keep it all out. 

It happens at different times for different people, but it happens to everybody. It's the worst part about growing up, heartbreak, but it's a part of life.

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